No one lives ForEver

New Year

2007-01-08T04:03:00.000-08:00

Well, dis year 2007 is an extremely crucial yr. It is going to determind whether i will be a Fighter, Rotary or Transport pilot. I wanna be a Fighter Pilot, will i eva eva mAke it? I hope i will. Personally, i feel that the key factor in anyone's pursuit of their dreams is to be focus. This year, i wanna be very focus. Focus in pursuing my dream - To Fly.

Somehow i feel that i am still unable to strive a balance between being focus VS other outstanding stuffs. Hai~ Dun really know how to express myself..... Vexed... *

Flying aside, this year most of my friends are turning 21! OmG! I have let sch for 3 yrS! And is just like.. Zoom! January Babies are, Kel, Rena Judy! Kel gonna celebrate his B Day at MoS this friday, Rena gal having a chalet on this saturday. Realli looking forward to it man. Judy's B day on the 20th. Another Chalet. But i bet it will damn high! A night filled with pinching, Tiacking and biting? hAha. Only the ex09 know abt this. Damn high la!!

Forgetful

2006-12-18T05:17:00.000-08:00

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2006-12-17T03:43:00.000-08:00

Life quite sucky Nowadays. Hai~ 2006.. wat a yr to end it

Troubled

2006-10-25T03:20:00.000-07:00

Many things happened over this few weeks. I feel that i have not been living everyday to the fullest. Maybe i have lotsa distractions in life or perhaps i have not been planning and setting goals for myself. Alhough i have set goals about being a fighter pilot, i have yet to set any goals for this few months before i depart to 130 for my Basic Wings Course.

I tink i should plan my days more wisely... There are actually many things i can do over these "free" periods of my life. I can go overseas to see the world, get scuba and powercraft licenses , read more about aviation.. eg checks and a/c systems and train and get myself fitter. HAi~~ But after coming out from ECHO wing.. i find that i lack that discipline to train up. Lucky i am in AVN soccer team that keep me in shape. Now i feel that my life is just like a zombie's life.. hai~ i Hate this type of life!

As for relationship wise.. Sometimes i feel that i should get married while sometimes i think that it is too early to settle down. There are many things that i have yet to fulfil and so many uncertainties. Should i take this option? Is OK to take calculated risk.. but for risk that cannot even been calculated.... what for take it? Rena parents had mentioned something that i got really affected by although she had tried explaining.. hai~~ Now i am scared to go her house. haha. Sounds foolish. but it is true. Wanted to bring her overseas.. Now that seems so distant. So nevermind, dun go overseas lolx. I feel that i still now prepared, be it mentally or even emotionally to settle down. hai~~ Lost~~ haha. Is she the right one for me? i Hope she is.

For now, i wanna spend my time wisely.. do useful things.. gonna draw up wat are the things that i wanna achieve in this few months. YuPZ! Gonna do that later.

New milestone

2006-10-01T08:17:00.000-07:00

Wow.. it have been 2 months since i last updated this blog. Anyway, i have completed my ground school for BWC> Now waiting for my departure to Pearce. Yupz.. so whats the new milestone. I finally got my Driving license! haha. After 5 months of lessons with Mr Toh.. some1 who cheats my money and dont realli teach driving.. i Manage to pass. Now i can drive around! Yup!

But honestly.. now as i gotten my license.. i think it is still the best being the passenger. haha.. can relac at the back seat.

Birthday

2006-08-04T09:19:00.000-07:00

Have not updated my blog so such a super long time. So decided to do it today, coz today is special, is my birthday. I am 20, nolonger a teenager. On my way to become a pilot! Yupz.

Many things had happened to me for the past few months. Firstly, my eye is now 4.5/6 meaning got betta than perfect eyesight. yyeah! Finally can do without glasses. Secondly, i am now in bAsic wings course liaoz, projected to leave for Pearce Next month. How cool, finally can get the chance to fly againz.

Currently doing ground school, studying more about aircrafts. I realise that being a pilot is not just about flying. There are many other subjects involve when is comes to flying an aircraft. Physics, Chemistry geography math, BIology.. so many things. Fitness also really important. Those pilots are really super duper zai!

Back to my birthday..... Got many wishes for my 20th birthday. Firstly, i wanna pass my basic wings course and i hope to be fighter pilot and get into the advance jet trainer in france. Secondly, i wanna be more confident and be able to articulate my thoughts well.... mani other wishes.... this two not exactly wishes.. but it is more like my AIM! Hopefully by the age of 22, i can get my wings and be a full fledge pilot.

As mentioned.. i am currently bz with ground sch.... time seems to pass really really fast and i really really miss my friends... haven got much time to catch up with my jc friends and ocs buddies... Hai~~ Wonder how are dey doing... Going to leave for Aus this yr... wonder how much time do i haf left to spend time with these great friends.... Heard from the pilots that once u are a pilot.... u wun haf much time for other things liaoz... kinnda scared... But for my dream.. it is still worth it.

Must thank Rena for giving mi this super nice pressie. a Cannon camera.. very cool and slim one. Must had cost her a bomb.. Boom!! thanks galgal!!!

I really hope that 20 will be a very good yr for my family, my friends and myself! Happy Birthday Bernard!

Good Bye Glasses

2006-03-29T20:22:00.000-08:00

Nearing the end of March le. March has been a twist in my life.. coz i can say byebye to spectacles already. Went for Eye surgery, PRK, to perfect both my left and right eyes :) Sommore it is FOC one.. haha. shiok.

By right my 2nd screening should be one the 21st of march.. butz so happen dat one of my friend wore contact lens... so cant go for he screening and i took his place instead. So my screening was a week earlier.. hee~~ a week earlier to perfect eyesight. The OPs date was on 21st march.. rena was wif mi.. Though it was just a small operation. i can still feel the.. EEeeeWWw feeling. haha. I was awake throughout the whole op... can feel all the things the surgeon did on my right eye.... i tink he removed my conjunctiva.. denz spray cold water.. denz put his super fine cylindrical shape thingy on my eye ball to hold it in place... denz the laser came... can se and smell smoke from my eye.. around 25 seconds.. my right eye was done. He was very assuring.... said everything went well.. COOL! Was waiting for it to be painful.. but the pain nv come. All my friends says the 1st day will pain until siao.. aparently.. mine didnt hurt dat much.. or hurt at all. hahah. The effect is immediate. I cansee the signboards on my way home in the taxi.. haha... Now the sad thing comes..mummy only alow mi to eat porridge the whole day... and this cootinued for the whole week . hahah. LOST 2kg somemore.

On the 3rd day of my op.. my vision went super blur.. was quite frightened.. only settled down when my friend told mi it was normal. His eyes also like dat. haha. Today is also the 3rd day since i did my left eye. It is also blur just like the right eye. BUt my right eye already can see quite well now. heEZ~ For the operation on my left eye... it was less scary... coz i got more experience le. butz this eye a bitz nautti lar... it was more painful than the 1st eye... and it keeps tearing... doc say my left innder eyelid haf papilla growing on it... datz y it swells.. haiz~ butz today everything is okiez le.. no pain.. just a little swell. 2ml remove the protective contact lens enz i am on my way to... perfect vision. Hahaa. Really looking forward to eat laksa without glasses.. play badminton without adjusting my glasses.. and aim properly when playing soccer. hee~ hope both my eyes will recover fast fast!!! Gal gal will come find me everyday to check on my eyes.. haha.. so nice of her.

The next thing on my list is to clear my driving be4 september and also finish planning our class outing. YupZ.....

Jungle Survival Training 21st Feb - 2nd Mar

2006-03-04T17:50:00.000-08:00

Completed the last phase of my Airforce service term in Brunei. Finally, i will be going to AFS to wait for my Basic Wing Course.

Jungle Survival Training (JST) is a mini version of JCC.. well.. though it is a mini version, it is good enough for me to realise how fortunate i am. Just the day before insertion to our survival site.. i was down with fever.. 39.2 degrees..I didnt dare to report sick .. for fear that the MO will disapprove my participation and i will need to recourse during the next batch of AFST. haha

The first day was rather disastrous for me... my site has very little resources available. So got to chop the wood myself.. super taxing and sianz.. coz plus my fever... plus no food.. i realli feel like fainting.. It is only through this type of desperation.. u will realise who u cherish.. who can give you the will to push on. End of first day... my A frame was not even completed.. super sianz.. go to sleep on the muddy floor.. feeding Mr mosquitoes and blood suckers.. Nv powder bathe or anything... jus sleep.. hahaha

Second day.. i still running fever.. damnz.. butz i still got lotsa things left undone. i Told myself no matter wat. i got to finish my A-frame by today... Everytime i sat down to rest.. i will tell myself.. hey get up.. no time le.. u wanna recourse mehz.. haha... so second day is like the daywith no rest... keep working and working.. denz.. pair up wif alvin and work together.. things got a little bit better... At least by the end of second day.. my A frame is up le!! and it is super duper zai one! Finally.. got to sleep on my structure instead of the muddy floor.. i still nv powder bathe.. shag.. just sleep..

3rd day.. the assessment day... the instructors will be coming around noon.. and i still have my fire place... monitor lizard trap, untensils and weapon maintainance undone. damnz.. so much to do... so little time.Can feel the exhaustion already.. coz no food...movement oso very slow.. but my mind brought mi through everything. i manage to finish all the other stuffs... and eventually when the assessors come.. they were very pleased with my results. heeZ~~ my Fever oso subsided le.. plus they gaf us a life quail and some sweet potatoes to reward us. Yupz.. got to kill the Quail myself... PLuck out its head.. skin it.. denz.... season it with salt.. denz i started boiling it.. yupz.. the taste not bad. finally can eat something. For the water part.. i got to gather it from the river. haha... the taste oso not bad one. Also for the 3rd day... i gathered the rest of the people around my area to stay with mi. haha.. coz i am the only one hu knows how to set nd maintain the fire. Lucky i learnt that from npcc and my childhod times.. hahah. Build a damnz big campfire.. haha... butz suddenly in the night.. the water starts coming in.. sianz.. flood againz.,

4th day.. extraction day. Got extracted from our site early in the morning to proceed with the E&E excercise. .. still feel weak. coz not enough food.. butz was issued combat rations. yum yum.. this one is the last game... we got to track back from our start point back to our base camp. shiok... long and gruelling walk. with a heavy load.. damnz.. sprain both my ankles.. butz no choice... i dun wanna recourse.. just walk and walk.. shag.. butz still endurable. Tracked from 9am to 4pm... and yeah.. reach camp! haha.. sper shiok the feeling.. super shag too.

Well, this brunei trip is one in a lifetime experience.. but i dun wanna do it againz.. hahahz... got to know my airforce counter parts better.... they are not that bad lar... maybe it is just me. hahha. Took C-130 back to singapore.. super noisy plane.. yucks.. hahahaz.

During my survival.. i decided that i gonna strive to be a fighter pilot! hopez i can make it! It is going to be a long journey.. a journey different from all my peers... but i still wanna take it.

Echo wing gonna commission next saturday le.. i must go down and see them commission. So glad that they made it through. Dunno when will it be my time.. When the time comes.. i will be damnz happy! coz it means i pass basic wing course le!

Yupz.. this month i will most prob undergo PRK. to perfect my eyesight. yeah! no more glasses...!!! soon...

Life in AFST

2006-02-18T18:18:00.000-08:00

well well.. didnt really enjoy afst.. mainly becoz i still miss my buddies in echo wing and i sill have this army culture inbuilt in me. hai~ anywayz, the whole afst change my perception of the organisation i am in.

Didnt have any chance to catch up with my good friends. perhaps only during the NY eriod where we met for a while. Miss my friends. hahaha... Hopez they are all doing well. My next phase will be JST in Brunei which i will be leaving tomorrow. Looking forward for the survival training. I think after JST... it will make me mor man... make me appreciate the food the accomodation that i have. HaHa. It will be very enriching i hope. :)

Next up.. once i am back in singapore.. i will be going to AFS.. than i will extract my 4 wisdom tooth and go for my eye surgery to perfect my eyesight. Then i can eat laksa without my glasses being fogged. hahaha. Oh ya,, i oso going down to OCS to watch my platoon commission. i was suppose to commission as well but i choose to fly. No regrets.. but just miss them a lot.

End of Air grading..

2005-12-12T00:01:00.000-08:00

well well, what can i say. I am totally overwhelmed by joy! Have been in tamworth for a month or so... and finally, i passed airgrading! hee~~ Infact.. the whole duration was only about 2.5 weeks..... coz for the 1st two weeks here..... we were just doing ground preparations while the seniors were flying....

Anyways, i got lotsa thoughts for this month. There are many motivation factors as to why i manage to pull through.. and of which, the most impt one is the passion for flying. i Realli do love flying and i feel realli good wheneva i am in the air.. Now i just earned a passage to grow wings and one fine day.. i realli hope dat i do have the wings to fly. Took my phase two test today... flew well.. and at 12.55 AU time... the instructor told mi dat i pass...! shiok siah!

Now realli looking forward to go back to singapore.. i realli miss the food.. the list of food i gonna try out are as follows. BA Chor Mee wif lotsa chili, Thai TOM YAM, sambal kang kong, Laksa, Mee SIam, Kuey chap, Cha kuay teow, cha kuay, curry fish head, chicken and duck rice, prawn noodle, hokkien mee, mee rebus, roti plata, nasi lemak, nasi brayani,ba kut teh, mummy's curry, sze chuan vege soup.. the spicy type, kong ba.. wa.. cannot write anymore.. realli drooling@ haha

Many people to thank here.... these are the people who motivated mi...... wanna thank you guys lots. MUM dAdDy korkor jeffrey, galgal, fufu, echo platoon 2, my teachers, my soccer kakis, juDyz mOMma, zi, Kw, SY... wa.. mani mani pple.. tink i am so bless to have so mani mani gooid friends... and of course... a superb family. heez~~

Air Grading

2005-11-26T15:27:00.000-08:00

It has been quite soomtime since i last updated this blog. Currently i am in australia doing my Air grading...

Really very glad to be here coz i realli realli wanna fly, i wanna be a pilot. Still remember months ago when i failed my medical and i thought that there goes my dream. Sometimes miracle do happen and angels seems to be around... eventually i passed my medical with some luck and help from others.

Got to leave my beloved platoon in ocs... where we are already the senior cohort and close to commissioning. i took a bigbig gamble to come here.. coz if i dont make it, there goes my officership.. many pple haf warned me about it... butz i still wanna give it a shot. coz i believe i can make it.

Anywayz, back to Air grading. Reached tamworth on the 8th of Nov..... it is summer here and the pace here is many time slower than singapore. people here are really friendly... Was quite afraid of my first sortie coz the instructors will be doing aerobactics on us. Butz somehow... during my first flight here... i throughly enjoyed flying.

The feeling of being so carefree in the air rox to the max. The clouds are just some distance from me and the land seems to be so insignificant when compared to the sky. The Sun looks bigger on air.. and everything below looks like tiny blocks of lego. Shiok.. Been here for approx 3 weeks already......... Next monday taking my 3rd sortie. so fast......

3 weeks here... though it is quite enjoyable and stress sometimes.. i really miss the food in singapore. Laksa.. hokkien mee... kuay chap.... cha kuay teow... curry... wow... Butz no fred.. i gonna endure and pass this course. when i am back in singapore 3 weeks later... i will make sure i eat them. hahah The weather here is the ideal condition that i always wanted.. the only minus point is the low humidity. i tried jogging... butz the air is thin... my throat hurtz... datz why i stopped. Gaininig weigght... butz it is okiez.. whne i go back to singapore.,. i will start my training regime againz. hahaz.

The meals here are like the buffet style. We can have cereals, bacon, pancakes, hashbrowns, bread ....etc.... lunch and dinner oso buffet. butz for lunch, coz we are flying... we can only have sandwiches. i eat cup noodles everyday.. coz... nite time sure hungry... just bought some indomee MEE GORENG. think thats the closest singapore food i can get. hhahah. WEekends will try to get chinese food as far as possible. The recreation here are the DVD we rent , table tennis, street soccer and basketball. shoik. Feels like... the typical hostel life.. coz need to study also. It is a good thing that i brought my laptop along... coz i cans tudy in my room at my own time rather than using the coms in the common area. Yesterday i started drinkning some alcohol.. coz is like a course thing and everyone is playin. drank a bit.. haha.. dunno galgal wil be angry a not. hahah. Anyway.. i dun like alcoholic stuffs... i prefer milo. haha.

Other than food, miss my family also. Daddy and mUmmy.. though at homes we dun realli chat and chat, butz at home, the presence of them feels good. No dad and mUm here...... butz i still need to stay realli focus on flying. Coz i wanna pass and go back home feeling hjappy. i Know they will be happy for me. Miss Jeffrey also.. where we will chit chat in the bedroom be4 sleeping. wonder how my little brother is doing. Talking about dat.. only managed to get a present for jeffrey.. didnt go out yesterday.. was resting at hostel.. so didnt get any presents. hahaz.

Miss gal too. The blur blur look... nv fails to cheer me up.... butz not dat bad. at least with internet, i get to msg her. hahaha... though we are distance apart.. butz i still feel that we jus live blocks always with the sms and msn. haha

Miss myclassmates too.. the peepz from 0903... tan yong.. fufu,.. JuDy MOmmA.. so mani of them. Got to jio them out to have a meal once i am back. Not forgetting the soccer KAkIs.... we always play soccer on sundays.. thought he pple are getting less lately.. it is one event dat i look forward too back in singapore. Joe already pass air gradining.,.. haha.. if i pass... perhaps next tiem can see him on aiR!. datz cool... fufu maybe gonna try air grading too... hahaha.. so mani friends pilotz wanna be.. how exciting.

Looking forward to clear this phase.. and i hope next time i update this blogz againz.. i would have pass airgradining... den i will be writiing about BACK IN OCS<> AIR WING. looking forward to see my platton in echo wing.. wanna see them commission.

I wun disappoint those pple that believe in be.. coz as much as they believe.. i oso believe dat i can fly and i will do it. it is just hardwork and perseverence.......... if pple can do it,, so can bernard,. Yupz.

OCS

2005-09-16T19:09:00.000-07:00

Finish service term le!!! finally... after 3 months of gruelling training... phase 2 of OCS coming to an end. hopez my next term will be at AFS.... hahaz.. coz after a super long wait of 9 months.. and after many ups and down.. i finally pass my medical test. oh yesh.. hopez the journey ahead will be more smooth..

Haven been touching this blog for a really really long time. mainly becoz i haf no time la... haha.. most of my time is spent on writing my diary.. hahaha. sounds gay. butz ya.. been writing everyday since i entered OCs. realli miss my friends... being in army really cut off most of my social life... kinnda sad sometimes butz is something every boy has to go thru to become a full blown man! yupz!! MAN!

About me... quite true

2005-05-19T05:27:00.000-07:00

Your #1 Match: ENFJ

The Giver
You strive to maintain harmony in relationships, and usually succeed.Articulate and enthusiastic, you are good at making personal connections.Sometimes you idealize relationships too much - and end up being let down.You find the most energy and comfort in social situations ... where you shine.
You would make a good writer, human resources director, or psychologist.

Your #2 Match: ENFP

The Inspirer
You love being around people, and you are deeply committed to your friends.You are also unconventional, irreverant, and unimpressed by authority and rules.Incredibly perceptive, you can usually sense if someone has hidden motives.You use lots of colorful language and expressions. You're qutie the storyteller!
You would make an excellent entrepreneur, politician, or journalist.

Your #3 Match: INFJ

The Protector
You live your life with integrity, originality, vision, and creativity.Independent and stubborn, you rarely stray from your vision - no matter what it is.You are an excellent listener, with almost infinite patience.You have complex, deep feelings, and you take great care to express them.
You would make a great photographer, alternative medicine guru, or teacher.

Your #4 Match: INFP

The Idealist
You are creative with a great imagination, living in your own inner world.Open minded and accepting, you strive for harmony in your important relationships.It takes a long time for people to get to know you. You are hesitant to let people get close.But once you care for someone, you do everything you can to help them grow and develop.
You would make an excellent writer, psychologist, or artist.

Your #5 Match: ESFJ

The Caregiver
You are sympathetic and caring, putting friends and family first.A creature of habit, you prefer routines and have trouble with change.You love being in groups - whether you're helping people or working on a project.You are good at listening, laughing, and bringing out the best in people.
You would make a great nurse, social worker, or teacher.

What's" Your Personality Type?

it haf been a long time since i last update u

2005-05-14T05:07:00.000-07:00

The month of april haf been a rather good month. I tink the highlight of the month was the attachment to the singapore youth flying club for two weeks. Yupz... got the chance to take the piper warrior to the air for abt an hour. Yupz.. my firsst time piloting a plane and i fell in love with it almost instantly..

I tink i haf decided to join the RSAF as a pilot for my future. Yupz! Although many of my friends told mi that pilot drop out rate is very high... i still believe i can be the last man standing. hahahaz.. my determination to be a fighter pilot doesnt seem to suay despite discouragements. In fact, it grew stronger and stronger as the days passes.

Just ltwo days ago... i received a heart breaking news from ST medical center. My medical result shows that i haf low Hb count and that makes mi nfit to be a pilot. It pains me so much to see my future smashed... my dream.... OUch. Many of my friends told mi dat yah.. datz life. u cant get everything u want. Butz mi not gonna gif up.. i am gonna to appeal and appeal and appeal.. Now.... i haf been searching over the internet on how to increase blood count./ hoepfully, the air force could gif mi another chance for a medical review.. and this time.. my blood level will increase ba. :) realli hopez so... It is realli so sad dat i dun even get a chance to go air grading and get kicked out.. haiz~~~ Why do those ppeople who always want something doesnt gets it.. while those hu doesnt realli wants it.. gets it...?? Maybe if i dun get to be a pilot... someone haf already arranged that i be something else in the future...? perhaps something more fulfilling... haiz~` i dunoz...

Jus incase i my appeal fail..... tink i should be going to OCS ba..... If nothing goes wrong la.. should be in SAFTI on June 20th.. hmmz.. actually i oso didnt know i can go ocs de.. until i came to know abt my bmt ranking. kinnda surprise though... was ranked 4th out of 2000-3000 recruits of my 1986 batch. was kinnda happy.. Now i tink i should spending more time planning on my next path... perhaps being a police officer.. or.. hmmz... doctor?? if i can be one... maybe a medical researcher.. yupzz... i dunnoz.

Got news from both NTU and NUS. For NTU.. i was offered biological sciences and for NUS.. i was offered science. stil pondering on which school to go to. butz was kinnda disappointted that i didnt get into medicine.. haiz~~ HOpez the future wil be better for mi :)

How can i forget about this... today is FUFU's birthday.. too bad he cant book out.. kenna extra.. haiz~~ anyways.. happy birthday to you fufu!!!!

LiFe after BMT

2005-03-22T21:17:00.000-08:00

22nd March

I have been waiting anciously for my posting results..have been wondering whether i would get into OCS. Kor told mi no problem la, platoon best sure go OCS one. Butz somehow, i just haf this strange feelin telling mi dat i wun be going OCS. True enough, that very morning, FuFu called and told me that i was posted to CMPB as a FEP Trainee. Diaos... no OCS???? i didnt believe... went online and check.. hai~ true enough, my heart sank.

The posting states that i was posted to cmpb to be a FEP trainee.. wat what is FEP?? a clerk? hmmz.. only came to know wat the it means thru mervyn. FEP=FLYING EXPERIENCE PROGRAM .. which also means that i will be going YFC for some flying experience :) heez~ on one hand i was over joyed that i get to fly.. butz... wat about OCS?? no more??? hmmz.. that means i will not go ocs wif my batch?? kinnda haf mani mixed feelings... wateva it is.. my New posting doesnt require mi to book in.. it is a 8-5 job.. can go home eeveryday.. haha.

A Level Results

2005-03-04T04:52:00.000-08:00

Went back to school... Legs felt very very very very heavy. Was dragging myself back to ajc. haiz~~ Yah.. today is the day. The day where a level result is out. walked past the table assign for our PDG.. on the desk it wrote... Congradulations to all.. all of u haf done well.. i was like.. aww.... realli?>? i haf done well?? i didnt dare to tink. Started to regret... regret for not studying hard during JC1.... and part of JC2... it is only until midyr exams where i flunk badly denz.. i started to study. YupZ.. was afraid that the 1/2 yr is not enuff for mi to do well.. coz i flunk my prelims as well.. yupz...

it is 2.30... denz out principal walked in and annouced that our batch did very well. Much better than last batch. i was like... oh reali? GP only 10 failures... i was like hoping that i am not inside the 10... coz i was the last 4 during prelims. yupz.. denz came our results. walked to Ms kwanterry..... dun dare to look at her.. heads hung low.. after i pluck out enuff couraged.. i asked her.. "my results very bad huhz?" she said... no lar! where got bad. i smiled.... oh yeahz.... got 3As n 1B... this was the least expected results. didnt expect my physics will get an A.. coz i always get c or d.. and was even force to dropped it.. didnt expect chem to get an A too.. coz i didnt do abt 15 marks for the pract. was expecting maths to get A... coz i though is was rather easy. butz in the end... Maths got a B! diaos.. realli diaos lolx. the rest of the sciences got As. scratch head.. want to smile.. feel happy coz got 3 As.. on the otherhand.. feel like slapping myself... y maths got a B?? hai~~ butz on a whole.. was quite pleased :) hmmz... i will work harder next time in uni ba :)

realli wanna thank mani pple for my results. Most importantly.. my teacher.. Ms kwan-terry , Mrs soon, Miss Chua, and zidane! haha. thank you thank you. and of course.. my gay friends... wai fu? hahaha jon jon... hmmz.. mugger.. hu always get pissed by me coz i keep calling them. hahahaz. these are the muggers hu haf pulled mi a long in my course of study not forgetting Judy MoMMa for pressuring mi.haha . and of course GAl GAl.... hu practice TYS with mi and test mi wif all the physics definations :) Thank you lots...!!!!!

life in BMT

2005-02-26T04:36:00.000-08:00

OH yeahz... finish my situation test.. blabla. tink i have done quite well for sit test :) Was in kilo.. detail 11 number 13. overall.. situation is quitez slack.... the opposite of watz i tot it would be. the only though part waas the afternooon route march to the sit test site. other than that.. everything was fine.

The Journey in NPCC had realli equppied me with good knowledge in knots and lashings. haha.. all these knowledge came in very handy during the test. not forgetting the planning.. the way to lead.. blablabla. Sometimes i realli wanna thank those mentor hu realli shoot at mi last time back in my cii life. haha.. so didnt make the same mistakes wen i was there. Yupz! so accompolish most of the missions that are under me and helpz to complete the mission wen others are the IC. hmmz.. somehow npcc has groom me to become both a leader and a team player :)

after SIT TEST

Came back to our company. That night, sir annouced that i was the platoon's best recruit. I was overwhelmed by joy! heeZ~ The Target i set prior to BMT has became reality! heez~~ sO HapPY HAppY ShAke SHAke :) now i see power of this quote by dunno hu "to begin with the end in your mind" Be4 BMT.. i already set my mind to get the platoon best. During BMT... i Worked extremely hard... heez~ now i got my reward le :)

Field Camp

2005-02-13T00:32:00.000-08:00

27th Jan-4th Feb

Looked forward 4 this field camp as i will be in the open forest for the next few days. The 1st two days was very slack, most of the lesssons were all lectures. We camou black and green and i tink the best activity is the powder bathe. i didnt know powder bathe= can be that ShioK. haha. The songs we sang prior to powder bathe realli make mi luf like madz. The hEll started on the 3rd day when we reach our new campsite at the oil palm plantation. Our PC and SerGents actually went mad and punish us for every single mistake we made. That treatment was only localised to our platoon la... sianz diao... we haf to double wif rifles overhead, leopard crawl in full battle order.. the worst part is when our PC started giving us extras like giving out wouchers. haiz~ we haf to pitch and unpitch our bashas frequently as a form of punishment too.. haiz~~

The morale of our platoon realli dipped.. everyone was disheartened... Then immediately after our field camp.. we had a hell week. the standard our PC and sergent want from us is realli damnz high lolx.. i remembered being the IC from ther 4th march to 6th march.. during which.. we haf abt 5-8 stand by area perday and each time.. 100 pushups is normal lalx.

Butz somehow.. our platoon mamaged to bond andduring this week.. we are always the 1st to fall in everymonring and ready for every activity.. hahaz.. denz finally our PC declared that the hell week is oveer as he had seen much improvement from us.. heng man

StArt Of a New Life

2005-01-21T01:40:00.000-08:00

Embarked onto a new life on the 6th of january. Army life! haha. currently i am in Jaguar company at BMTC sch 1 platoon 4! lolx.

Still can remember wat happened on the 1st day.

Day1: took a fast craft from SAF ferry terminal... at abt 4.30... i exchanged my red NRIC for the green 11b dat all NS man haf. At that time.. i know i am no longer jus a civilian.. i am some1 entrusted with the responsibility of defending the nation. Dad and Mum was with mi at the Auditorium where we had this swearing in ceremony which is called the oath of allegience. Mugger yong was sitting beside mi.. quitez sadz lalx.. wen i found out he is not in the same platoon as me. Butz.. haha.. wen xian is! lolx.. Denz we haf thise dinner together at the canteen with our parentS! denz i saw joe, simon, muggerand wen xian and some of my other friends!1 hahahz.

The days in army went on very well! it was quite slack initially.. our sergent Dazril was like quitez slack wif us.. hahahaz.. my sections mates all all very on one.. so dat makes the stay there fun! butz as the days go by... our sergent suddenly turn into a pushup monster dat keep making us to pushups.!1 haha.. actually there are mani jokes here and there.. there are some sabo kia in my platoon. they are those hu are usually laTE! damN it!

The training was fun... coz i get to meet up wif joe and mugger and wenxian! hahaz.. we usually do PT together/. hahaz. butz i tink i was the one locating them in the crowd of 200 recruits! hahaz. butz it is usually very easy to find them coz they are always standing at the back. lolx.. the food was GOOD! not as bad as i initially thought it would be. i enjoyed all the meal session.. coz i get to see FUFU!! hahaz. Sham is also in my platoon.. got to see so mani klass mates.. ex klassmates.. montfort friends.. so Army is like a mass gathering session for all of us!

i guess the only thing dat i dred was dat i live athe 5th story. so is like... very sianz wen we need to run up and down! hahaz. Sergents also love to use vulgarities... and Vulgarities to them is like a punctuation mark.. lolx.. so u can roughly imagine how mani times they use it!

1 of the training that i love most was the BCCT training! the instructor very fierce one.. and his biceps as big as my tights! kaoz.. is so damnz big lolx.. and everyone is afraid of him. butz i still like the lesson coz it pulls out the agressive side of Mi! Stilll remember the 1st PT lesson when we learn how to do the warm up. and after the warm up.. we all feel shag! Mind you.. it is WARM UP! haha. think the warm up works far far too well le lalx! butz subsequently... it is no longer shag anymore and i am beginning to enjoy it lolx!

Passed the pilot interview already... so now waiting for medical test. hmmz.. duno whether i should be a pilot a notz.. it seems challenging.. butz i got other dreams to fulfil.. quite lost actually.. coz once i sign it.. it will be a 12 yrs contract.. which is like.. wow... all my youth given to be a pilot.. butz the pay is damnz good i must say. still got 1 more month to tink about this option.. for now.. my aim is to get gold for IPPT and get into OCS! hopefully i can get platoon's best or maybe company's best recruit! hahahz/ i wil work towards it de! lolx...

Tink renA is working till very late! so if u are reading this.. u haf a curfew at 12 pm... plz be back be4 this time.. coz i wanna u to rest and dun overwork! k/? MiSs Ya in camp wOrz! Butz i still call u every nite ritez? ahahaz. butz wen i go field camp.. i wun be able to msg u le nor call u le.. so... Dun MIss mi!1 kkakaaactually.. i am starting to miss sch... miss the time we slack in klass.. the times we pon lectures.. and how Ms kwan terry act cute! miss My klAAss mates a lot.. miss 0903 and 4s1! haiz~ Miss those times where i play soccer with my soccer kakis every sunday opp montfort secondary!

Yah.. kel, rena and juDe B day past le! hahaz.. lucky can use handphone in camp.. so get to msg them to tell them happy b day! hahaz.

Den the 2pidz da bian bian B day is Yesterday! it was like i jus book out the day be4.. was hunting a pressie for her! and wanna get aher a top! butz she so tall!!! all the shirt so short! StuPId! hahahz. in the end get a a earphone,, and den got lost at far east plaza.. coz i cant find the clinic she is working in!butz still manage to find her eventually! hope u like the present worz! HAppy b dayz!

New YeaR!

2005-01-01T01:41:00.000-08:00

This year is very different from the past 12 years! Becoz.. i need not worry about school reopen.. instead.. i am looking forward for national service. Something i have always hoped to be in! hahaz. I wanna go in and do my best... hopefully if nothin goes wrong.. i can get into OCS and be an officer! yupz! Hopez i can make it! JIa You!

Anyways.. some of the guys going in at the same time as me. ( MUgger , Wen Xian, Simon, Yong Lee@!! oh no.. , Joe) hopez to be in the same company or platoon as them!! haha. if we can be buddies,datz even betta!

Butz NS marks the beginning of working life... It means less time for Friends.. Less time to do the things i like... No more Sch.. haiz~~ Though i always dreaded school re open... once i am in school... the feelin is totally different! i Mus admit that i am super lucky to end up in good classes with good friends! Gonna Miss all of them all! haiz~ :(

Kinnda sadz now actually.. is a new year.. butz my family is having war.. Why?? i dun understand.. haiz~ i also dunno why i get scolded// hahaz.. butz still tolerating... hopez i wun burst. Dad still as unreasonable as always. He shifted everything in our room without asking us. Throw our stuffs out of our rooms and call us to pack..?? diaos... So sad! although ya is true that we are living in his house.... he owned the house.. butz i tink it is only polite to ask us how we feel about his ideas. he just shift my room the way he likes.. haiZ~ but hu is living in this room? me... and if i dun like... why u still want to shift it? you wun be living in the room? haiz~ still as stubborn. but let him be lol.. he haf high blood pressure.. dun wanna aggrevate his conditions. so only thing i can do is to..... obey lal. hahaz.

Oh ya.... the tsunami incident! Condolences to those hu lost their families.... their friends.. haiz~ many poeple died... the number is about 110 000 ... and still counting.... butz one thing i am happy about is that mani people from all over the world are coming forward to helpZ! heeZ~

tink i sign off le.. haiz~~ dad getting angryz againz~ hai~

BirdzNeRdz

Chalet

2004-12-15T22:28:00.000-08:00

Jus haf an Ex 0903 classs chalet on monday to wednesday. 3 DAyz worz! It was a bungalow bookeed by judy's dad! hmz... it haf been a long time since i last went to a chalet.. though not all ex0903 pple are present... it was still quitez fun. the Preparations started on sunday where our gang went to shop for BBQ stuffs. denz went to wanting house to prepare. Actually wanted to play majong de.. butz somehow... all dun wanna play so i end up going home. heez~~

The chalet was at aloha LoYAng.. pasir ris there... Very near to the beach. butz.. i didnt realli go to the beach except for the 1st ntiez where we went there fishing! yupz.. i haf not fished for 1/2 yr le. butz iwas quite surprise wen i rem how to tie the fishing lines. heez~ anyways. know some new friends there. they are judy's klassmates. Pple such as MoSes.. Arden... Xiao Li... and some others. 4got their name le lax.. butz stil okie.. as long as i rem their faces. Stupid JuDYz duno how to cook! heez~ come box mi lalx! butz i enjoy cookin over there. hopez they didnt haf stomach ache. Judez hair grew longer le.. haha. watz a surprise!

The BBQ was quitez okiez.... haz. Fu Fu , yong zhi , Tan Zhi, yong haoz, wan ting and.... still got huz huhz i forget le. are present. was BBQying and eating at the same time. lOlx. OH ya. still got the LAmA king. CHarles! .. so sad.. didnt get the chance to eat the chicken wing seasoned by JUdyz! haz she keep tellin everyone she is the one hu season it. HAO LA! qiang LOLx!! WOW!! CLAP CLAP!!! hahaah.. happy now? butz from the pple commends.. the chicken should be not bad :) too badz i nv eat! haiz~

FOr the second day... we went to the pool to play rugby! hahahaz.. it is damnz energy draining! hahahaz. was super shag after the game! coz prior to dat.. we were at the tennis court playin!! MoMMA was so strong lolx!! got HAo Chi de Dong XI!

THe second nitez was betta. we went to shop for some fresh food and cooked for dinner! lOLX. it was the 1st time we at rice for 2-3 days? i tink so. denz late in the nitez, all of the cramp into my room and started tellin horror stories! hahahaz~ Lolx! ya.. datz how the second ntiez past. so sadz,, muger wasnt there to play! ayes. he say if he come.. he will f*** pple.. lolx

ANyways... now i slacking at FUfu's house! hahaz... my computer keep hanging.. cant do much things with it. i was suppose to do the flashback for the batch D04... at last.. i finish le worz! hopez they will like it

Signing off le!
BErnard
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It haS Been a LOng Time...

2004-11-28T07:40:00.000-08:00

A levels is finally over! oh yeahz! actually it is over the day be4.. butz i went for a camp.. so i haf no time to update. today.. i book out of camp... so jus haf time to update my blog. Allritez.. the bigbig obstacle has past. looking back.. it was realli a stressful week. All the mugging... studying... all tiredness due to insufficient rest.. all the excitement.. the jittery.. TimE SeeMs to ZOOM past mi... 1 month has past! and it is realli jus like yesterday where i took out my chem notes and flip to food chem.

Of all the paper i took.. i tink i screwed up some papers.. 2 practicals and bio paper 1 and physic paper 3. haiz~` hopez i dun screw up dat badly... coz i did prepared hard for them. Anywyas.. it is all over.. no use thinking of it le.. Butz Some pple i will Realli LOVE to thank.

I will like to thank my gal gal... we haf past to bigbig obstacle together. O levels.. and A levels.. for both examination.. u haf always been by my side... we are always encouraing oneanother.. heeZ~ everynite wen i get GAN gIOng.. u always manage to calm mi down.. although i didnt tell ya.. haha. i am telling u right now :)

NOwz// my MOmmAzz.. hu acted like my MumMY wen they are alway. SendINg mi EnCouraging MSgs.. and oso.. teaching mi concepts dat i dunno! u OsO Nv faIls to mAke mi feel betta with ya reasuring MeSSAges.. THaNK yoU so MUCH!!!!!!!

Oso... MUGGER yONG! hahaz. My Super tuition teacher hu nv fails to p[ick up the phone wen i call and ask for HELPZ! hahaz.. and this even applies at 1am in the morning. He Studies very hard.. and i am quite certain he will Get all the 4As! haha. GOOD LUCKS! we go civil union next time with yong hao! We ArE GAys! can tok over Da phone for 2 hrs.. discussing biology and GP~ LolX

My DeaR FUFU! how can i forget abt u!!!!!!!! Went To his place to haf dinnner wen my parents are away. went there to stay too. we studied together.. and this Fu huhz! keep asking qns dat wun COME OUT and ask jus to satisfy his interest. hahahaz. NOT bad lalx.. i oso like dat.. heez~ butz now As are over.. u can go find out urself le rite? thAnKs aLL ur Philosophy.. heeZ~ it did help!

NOw For THis OLD lAdy wif the naME of LIshi! Thank you for all ur messages... good lucks.. and those suaning ones. haha.. i know u are playing.. they are very funny... so it is very good. coz.. in the midst of the hectic studyingh schedule.. hahaz.. i manage to find time to luff becoz of those suaning MessAges. hahaz.. butz hor.. i tink i am the one hu SUanDED ya 1st. so fair riteZ? Yupz! She is GOing BaCk To MaLaYSIa......... So SAdz~! THiNK I will realli mISS dIs Friend of mine.. LOTZ LOTZ LOTZ! i will oso miss por por too!!! Sobz. So liSHi and porpor.. STAY in CONTACT KAeZ!!!???!!!???!!!

The End of A levels.. marks the end of the JC cHapter... wen i look back.. i realli enjoyed the company of my klass 0903 ! ! ! ! there are many memories we shared dat are engraved deep in my HEArt. i ReAlli LOve All of u A LOt. ALL OF u 0903! friends are hard to come by,,,, GOOD frIENds.. BEST fRIEnds... are even harder to come by. i Tink i HAf FOund these FrIenDs in 0903... i willl treasure all this friendship.. coz .. it is realli important to mi! Do u Still remember the thing we wore at the skihn temple? remember the rally?? the king and princess?? the klass video dat we almos cried? oUR Super Act Cute Teachers? The torturing PE lessons? the sleepy lectures? the SupEr Cold AUdI? The NAtional Day CeleBrations? How we ran together... how we win It Together?? OUr service learning.. how we plAN together.. We haf gone thru a lot a lot. HEeZ~ Honestly.. Two yrs back... AJC was NV my ChoiCe of JC... i hate the skool... butz.... i tink becoz of the friends dat i made... i enjoy skool everyday. becoz.. i enjoy seeing my friends. though some seems to be VERY VERY FIERCE TO ME like MEIMEI, i can see dat she is actually very nice... fierce on the outside.. butz verY Helpzful in the INsidez. ya... Going NS on the 6th on JANUARY 2005! Wen Xian.. YONG zhi... JOe.. SImon.. all same day@ haha hopez to end up in the same company.. if bettta.. same bunk! hahaha. realli looking forward to NS right now.

Jus came back from Ms Kwan terry HOUse.. her houSe is Super nice! nice cosy living room...beautiful pictures all around... comfortable sofaS! and even the kitchen LooK so COOL! she invited us to her house for dinner. so NICe of her! THANK YOU Ms KwaNterry.. tink the whole class realli realli appreciated it!

Currently.. i am attending a camp. 67th BATCh CAdet inspector's BAsic Training COurse. Attending aas an instructor... this is my 3rd course. YAz.. butz this course is different.. it is a Residential course.. denz the ATC last for 5 days! tHink sOMe of the Instructors realli COcKy.. butz watz to do.. tolerate lolx.. let them mi. we cant expect everybody to be nice... Humble... yupz. BUtz somehow i regretted going for this course.. coz i do not haf realli anything to do. Very SLAckz... i hopez to do more stuffs. haiz~ hAo Ba.. end off le.. wanna go and sleep. tomolo need to report at 7am at police academy.. haz. hopez dat i wun be late. HOpez dat the course will get betta... ya.. GOOdnItez pEEpx!

Bernard.. Signing off

Chem Prac....

2004-10-29T07:47:00.000-07:00

jus as i tot nothin can be as bad as physics prac.... chem prac came!! i studied a lot.. but at the end of the day.. is horrible! not dat it was difficult.. i mus admit it is not at all difficult... i haf come across the type of qns... butz. haiZ~ tink i didnt read the qns dat well.. end up .. i screwed up for lotsa QNS! sooo gek.. watz to do... maybe the one up there is listening to my pray.. he wants mi to wake up and stop slacking... so maybe the prac is a wakeup call... :) .....

MUm and dad and jeff...... leaving for LA tomolo.. i will be homealone.. quite sad oso.. tink i will miss them. haiz~~ bon voyage mum and dad! :)

LAst lap

2004-10-25T19:20:00.000-07:00

Had my physics practical yesterday.. realli screwed up! haiz~~ butz i not gonna tink abt it.. if it was last time.. i tink i will keep thinking and thinking non stop. maybe becoz i come across gif book given by Ms Kwan Terry.. title "Life Wisdom" . gonna type out some parts that are quiter meaningful.

Detach from the Outcome.
here is goes. Often fear of a negative outcome draws exactly what we most fear towards us. Have you been dwelling on a worst case scenario? are you fearing and preparing for what you dont want to happen? well, now is the time to stop. focus on the process. put your energy into the journey rather than dissipating it with fears of where this journey will take you. It will take you wherever you are meant to be and the more you will find that you like where u end up. Know that a Samurai was the one who concentrated on the fight and did not waste energy on whether he would win or lose. Such a strategy meant that he could give his all and invariably he would win. you can too. Detach now. I am not gonna think of whether i will get 4As.. fear that i wun get 4As... i will just concentrate on doing the questions correctly and smartly. whateva the results... i will just leave it till next year. even if i did badly.. i know i haf tried my best. i did not fail... i jus took a step backwards.... i can move forward anytime i am ready to move. yupz~

time noww is 10.30. i am 2.5 hrs off my revision schedule! time to study le! hahaz. hopez i wun slack today. i know i wun. logging off le. To those taking A levels this year, all the best. To my gal gal.. hu is mos probably studying in school now... Jia you worz~ hahaz.

i didnt go

2004-10-19T23:57:00.000-07:00

Was at my grandpa's wake yesterday... mum told mi to go home to study.. butz i wanted to stay.. i oso wanted to stay fot today.. butz i haf My As tomolo.. so haiz~~ haf to go home to rest.. reach home at abt 8am today.. damn shag.. so sad dat i cannot be present at his wake today.. coz today is the last day of the wake..

Last nite was Xtremely saddening... during the rituals.. as i recollect the moments wif grandpa.... i suddenly felt my heart sinking. haiz~ Mum was crying. realli crying.. my heart was broken.. haiZZ~ butz pple.. aged.. pple dies.. look at the brighterside.. i got to prepare for my biology prac tomolo.. so i came home to rest.. hmmz.. is 3pm now.. i tink i left a bit more...

anyways.. i receive my NS enlistment letter from mindef. going in on the 6th of january 2005.. it is another chapter of my life... be4 dat chapter starts.. i hope to end my JC's chapter by scoring well in A levels.. got to work realli hard coz i am damn DUmb.. HOpe i wun slack anymore!!

he left us

2004-10-16T09:08:00.000-07:00

on the 1st day wen grandpa was down wif a fever,,,, he was sent to tan tock seng hospital. dunno y.. i haf a strong feeling dat he wil not make it through this time.. i told mum.. she told mi rubbish. he nearly left us a few days ago.... my heart sunk wen i saw him in hospital.. he seems to be in pain.. butz yesterday.. the good news came.. doc say his condition haf improve to much.. he can be discharge in another 2 days.....

today's morning.. as i was cutting my hair midway... the call came... grandpa died.. i asked mum how he died... mum said... the nurses bathe him.... make him clean clean.. clean his bed sheets.. he was sitting on a chair... and after a while.. he left.. he left on that chair with a smile.. ya.. grandpa left le......

haiz~~~ i realli wonder where would he go... wen pple dies.. where will they go??? haiz~~ and issit pain dying.. how will u feel wen u are dying.. haiz~~~

dunnoz lalx.. hopez i will get back to my study mood.. A levels coming le.........

haZ~ sad things aside.. Joe's birthday today! wish him a realli happy birthday !!!!! be happy and good lucks for ur As k? hahaz~ we went to newton circles to haf a feast... boy.. it is damnz good!!! hahaz.. anyways. i am a botak now... :):):)

Graduation

2004-10-16T08:51:00.000-07:00

yesterday marks the end of my JC life... no more lectures.. no mor tutorials... no more formal classes... still rem wen i 1st step into the sch... i went to the audi with some of my montfort friends... AJC was nv my ideal sch.. its a sch.. full of muggers and suckers. hmmz.. today... as i leave the sch.. i will not change my view of the sch.. butz i still enjoy sch very much. Thanks to all my friends... my teachers.. hu are so nice to mi~!

i enjoy the company of the mugger gang!! yong zhi chee hong blablabla.. hahaz~ not forgetting the por por hu is always so nice to sun zi.. although she sometimes is strict.. butz okiez lalx.. she is Very nice! Karboon... hahaz.. the gal hu i always bully in klass!! heez~` always suan her one! tan zhi and yong hao are the slacker grp.. hu doesnt do tutorials.. slack and slack like no ones business! not forgetting Joe hu is My mss and AJC buddy! butz JC2 haf fewer interactions with him coz he needs to spend time wif Shu Qi.
still got Shu xin... was very hurt by her in jc 1.. wen she loves to say i am very ugly. hahaz.. butz ugly ugly lolx! Lishi is the sleepy head hu always doze off in klass.. and she is the rumoured gal wif Mr ONg!!! i tink the gal i fear most in klass is meimei.. she is cute wen she is not angry.. butz wen she is angry... haiz~~ terrible!@!!!!haha... Many friends i made hu i will always remember and treasure the friendship!!

hmmz.. some pple worth mentioning.. Wai fu and Jon.. they are one of my closest friend though we are not in the same klass.. we shared our troubles.. our worries.. and every thing.. we braved thru problems together.. laugh together... and whack each other! hahaz~ u are so so GREAT! still got some1 i Mus mention. she is JUdy.. aka my MOmMA! hu always care to listen and gif advices! i love u all lots!!

as for my gf rena.. u haf been great for these two years.. u are always there!! heez~~ I realli enjoyed by two years in ajc.. butz i would not haf enjoyed so much without the friends that i made! as we reach the crossroads in our life.. we may take different routes.. butz lets pray hard and wish that our we will meet at another crossroad againz~ till then.. take care my friends:) with lotsa lotsa lotsa lOve from me:)

New ToYS!!!!!

2004-10-11T04:46:00.000-07:00

haz.. was suppose to write this yesterday.. butz i didnt .. Got a new toy! DAddy bought a laptop and a video camera! so shuang.. can take videos le!! oh yeahz! hmmz.. but hor.. i can only get my camera 5-7 days later.. coz we sent it to the manufacturer to add some functions to film at night! haha,, realli hope to get it soon.. coz i wanna take the moments during graduation!! and oso joe's B DAy!! imagine we all whack him and i stay at one corner capturing the special moments! hahaz

hmmz... at nite.. i went to wisit granddad hu is in the hospital! tink he is reali sick.. he seemed to be in great pain.. and he is also breathing heavily.. my heart sunk immediately wen i saw him :( Hope grandpa will get well soon!

today was horrible! eventhough i slept at 1am ... i still doze off in class.. and during lectures!!!! haiz~~ :( den i found out that there is lots of work i haven do.. hope i can finish them tonitez! butz hor,, i am already very tired now.. denz still got so much to do! god helpz mi! hopez i can stay awake and do! haiz~~ log off le! homework here i come!

.... Award

2004-10-09T08:14:00.000-07:00

hmmz.. was suppose to mug very hard today... initially.. i did.. butz denz around 12.. i started to slack and slack. cant stand myself.. y i cant jus get myself focus like watz i normally do! can some1 helpz mi plz?? haiz~~~

Anyways.. was very happy. coz at 5pm, i went to receive my commissioner of police commendation award :) heehee~~ i saw the list of CIs.. and only 12 CIs receive the award. so i felt realli fantastic!! hahaz.. okieokiez.. hope after entering this entry.. i go go study le! jiA you wor Bernard!

Quarrel

2004-10-08T05:31:00.000-07:00

haiz~ unlucky day today. Actually Quarrelled with daddy.... I dunno watz wrong wif him.. or watz wrong with me. Suddenly for nothin he just scold me for nothin... i asked him for the reason of scolding mi.. he jus refused to give any reasons.. coz he started the scoldings with no reasons. was so pissed,,, so i went out and mug. actually hope to mug until today's morning one... butz Mum called me home.. so i went back at around 12?? i dunno. butz come to think of it.. it seems like mum is the one who started everything.

Anyways.. A levels is coming. got to work realli hard coz i haf been V stupid lately.. haiz~ gonna mug realli reali hard starting from today. Hope that all my friends will be working very hard too!

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2004-09-30T20:05:00.000-07:00

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